The excitement of becoming a mom is getting overwhelming. It has gotten to the point where I just can't sleep anymore. As I lay down at night, my desire to get some rest is interrupted by my great imagination and longing to meet my baby. The thoughts and "day dreams", so to speak, keep me awake almost through the night.
I can equate it with being a child and having that great anticipation about going on vacation. The night before we would leave, I would be unable to sleep. I was wide awake by the thoughts of what it would be like, what we would do, and all the fun we would have.
Or even Christmas. As a kid, Christmas eve night was the worst night for sleep! I just couldn't stop thinking about waking up in the morning to a living room swallowed up in presents. What did I get this year? Will mom and dad like what I got them?!
But more accurately, this excitement and anticipation can be more equated with getting married. Weeks before the big day, I would lie awake just thinking about that perfect day and what life would be like afterwards.
In marriage you get a person; a spouse, a forever partner, a best friend to share life with. A person that is there with you through the thick and thin. It's a momentous occasion that calls for celebration. And it's life changing.
It's the same, really, for having a baby. In the end you get a person. A tiny baby that is a blend of both you and your spouse. An intermingling of the two of you in this tiny tiny human. Having a baby is so neat.
You watch for almost 10 months as your body begins to grow and change, to accommodate a tiny living creature. Each week is filled with something new, something different. It's so unique to feel the little person you are growing start to wiggle and move around. And soon, you discover that this little baby in your womb already has a personality developing in there- already has her own temperament.
And you know that all of those people out there that say fetuses aren't humans yet are full of crap. You know that babies in utero are living humans, complete with their own personalities and designed by God. They are created humans too. You know this because you're growing one, and well, you just know.
The anticipation of meeting Jaelyn is overwhelming. I'm excited beyond words. I don't want to wait another 4 weeks. I want to hold this precious baby, love on her, and be her mama!
I can't wait to meet you!!
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