I just feel that I am losing or forgetting the passions and desires that were once so strong. And I'm worried that I'm going to simply settle for a mediocre job and living in a place that I don't like. Part of me feels that if I don't do what I really love now that I will never get around to doing it.
I guess that's why I'm so frustrated lately and why I've been searching non-stop online for different jobs or different things to go to school for. I just want to figure out what to do before it's too late and I'm stuck doing what I hate.
And it's not even that my life is so terrible or my job that unbearable. I can tolerate my job, it's not that bad. It's just so boring and I definitely can't see myself doing that long-term. I dread going in for several reasons; there's not a lot to do there in the middle of the night, it's extremely difficult to see the mind's of these mostly healthy elderly people deteriorate so terribly, and ... well, it's just not something that I'm passionate about at all.
I don't know where to go from here...
