I Loved You Before I Knew You

I loved you before I knew you

I loved you before I knew you

I lost you way too soon

A piece of my heart is missing,

Broken and given to you

I knew in that moment I would lose you,

And there was nothing I could do

They told me that this was common

And the pain would be over soon

They said that there was a reason

And with time I would heal

But neither time nor reason can change the way I feel

I wrestled with the questions and I cried a thousand tears

I don’t know why this happened; it was one of my worst fears

I begged God to save you, to heal you inside of me

But that didn’t happen; instead he took you into eternity

I dreamt for months and months, of the day I’d hold you tight

I’d listen for your baby breath and rock you through the night

I prayed for months and months, as you grew inside my womb

I prayed for you every day, hoping to see you soon.

I cried for months and months, when they said that you were gone

I laid alone in silence, and wondered what went wrong

For just a few months, I was the mother of a child

I prayed for you and I loved you, I was a mommy for a while

You’re the baby that I carried,

The one I’ll never see

You would have made me a mother

But now I must wait to be

I loved you before I knew you

Only 2 months in my womb

A piece of my heart is missing

Broken and given to you